With restless thoughts,
suffering severe memory disorders,
undergoing self inflicted physical damages,
I have become more anxious than ever,
more tacit than verbose I was,
I stand a loser today, still yearning to hear, to see, to be with you.
If I ever wish to get away from you, it shall be nothing more than mocking myself!!
this day should have been unforgettable, I was enthused;
this hour should have been eternal, I was eager;
this very moment should have been wonderful, I was pompous;
unraveled is the veil of love you wore, to show the ruthless you;
with muted voice, overbearing silence;
walking the path to escape the mire of you;
silly are my tears, messy are my feelings;
wacky is my heart, tired is my body;
my tears will not wipe away the past, only make it a taboo in this society;
my feelings distrust every single thing, won’t help me in retiring from your thoughts;
my heart doesn’t forget to die down and rest, could only wish it shall paralyse;
none of them know you wouldn’t return, how much ever they yearn;
if my forgetfulness will save me, let me go through;
but little do I hope without you, just like a fish without water;
to love was not a herculean task, to dislodge it is;
in the ever busy coffee shop,
when everyone around is sipping their coffee;
my angel in white punjabi dress embellished with white pearls,
is all tears and tight-lipped to disclose, sitting across;
terribly worried I was,
took her hand into mine and pulled her besides me;
quirky me caught a couple of her tear drops and said,
‘darling enough of pearls on your dress, please stop crying’;
she smiled coyly,
hit me hard on my shoulder with her fist;
‘idiot how long should I wait ?’ she said wiping her tears,
‘you will never learn to come on time, will you ?’;
‘Sorry , I was late, but then see if I wasn’t late, I would have missed catching up with pearls’,
only to make her come closer and cuddle up her;
‘I missed you so badly’, we would say to each other,
and the eternal conversation would continue….;
