As I see from the window of train ,
Flittering landscapes remind me the battles I fought in the expanses of emptiness!!
As I hear the tipping water drops wiped away on my car,
Tears run down , which don’t know you aren’t here to do so!!
As I dream about you in deep sleep,
My heart circles around loci of lost love, not realizing its unreal feat!!
As with every tick tock of life,
I feel thrust of death rolling in!!
more I move forward,
with constant echoes,
memories pull me back,
its not easy;
having become a fiend of you,
in the throes of breaking away,
this heart tremors with pain and
mind goes wool gathering all day;
Its not easy, to put up a face,
once bitten, always shy;
I have this feeling of shrinking,
ratcheting up tears deep inside,
for trading all of me to you;
to stop being a desolated self,
to stop being histrionic,
to stop prattling about you,
Its not easy!!
from the diary : 9 June 2013
that’s how I feel,
ever since I let you go;
speech is spartan;
sounds are silent,
tears are frozen,
emotions are crippled;
breeze is heavy,
sun is shying away;
time has stopped,
between dichotomies and paradoxes of life,
I miss you;
from the diary – 12 Jan 2013