Flittering Landscapes

As I see from the window of train ,
Flittering landscapes remind me the battles I fought in the expanses of emptiness!!

As I hear the tipping water drops wiped away on my car,
Tears run down , which don’t know you aren’t here to do so!!

As I dream about you in deep sleep,
My heart circles around loci of lost love, not realizing its unreal feat!!

As with every tick tock of life,
I feel thrust of death rolling in!!

its not easy

more I move forward,
with constant echoes,
memories pull me back,
its not easy;

having become a fiend of you,
in the throes of breaking away,
this heart tremors with pain and
mind goes wool gathering all day;

Its not easy, to put up a face,
once bitten, always shy;

I have this feeling of shrinking,
ratcheting up tears deep inside,
for trading all of me to you;

to stop being a desolated self,
to stop being histrionic,
to stop prattling about you,
Its not easy!!

from the diary : 9 June 2013